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Begin to Feel

by Colin Burke

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1.
In the Grass 04:43
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It's more than I can stand when you walk away, And nothing else is sacred. Run, so far, if you're lucky you'll stay forever In the grass. Well I'm worried I don't have that kind of time, So how am I gunna stitch things up right? I think about ending it all with my feet up on the couch. I feel it always, I feel you only- If you're in my head or in front of my face on a screen I'll be here always- as long as I can stand to breathe. I can take a bit of heat, oh it's complicated. We're sacred now! Giving it around. You can bring me back but you can't back down. We're not clever- more clever than a one click trigger. So easy let me press and see what it does. If I destroy the world will you come with? "It's fate!" you scream, If I'm lucky you'll take me into your arms. Well I'm worried I don't have that kind of time- Better not use that time to say goodbye. And it's longer than we think- still 40 years if we're lucky. We're sacred now! Giving it around. You can bring me back but you can't back down. We're not clever- more clever than a one click trigger. So easy let me press and see what it does. Would I destroy the world if we could build? It's more than I can stand when you walk away. (inside you'll walk away, not a new place for me) I'm worried I don't have that kind of time. I'm worried I don't have that kind of time, Like everyone else does. I'm worried I don't have that kind of time. Better not use that time to say.... We're sacred now! Giving it around. You can bring me back but you can't back down. We're not clever- more clever than a one click trigger. So easy let me press and see what it does. Would I destroy the world if we could build?
2.
Begin to Heal 04:28
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The last years passed by in seconds, Crashed and burned for another lesson. Caught off gaur, forced in submission. Was it worth it? Oh, just forget it! No one cares so they never listen, There's a point that I must be missing. Back on track from a slight digression, A little broken, I swear I'll get this. Well you've got me right where you want me, Take me all across the country- I can see you flying overhead and I'm safe. I would never, ever do a thing to hurt you. You should know me better than my haters do. Can we all just get along? I'm going back to my roots, To find me a stronger- woman! Not these con artists I'm used to. It will do wonders for my mental health too. I just hold on, hold on, hold on... Let's begin to feel, Let's begin to feel. Let's begin to feel, Let's begin to heal. You can't avoid it, you know I've enjoyed it. But let's begin to feel, let's begin to heal. (on the days I come to you) Will it ever come true? Can we all just get along? I'm going back to my roots, To find me a stronger- man! Not these idiots I'm a part of, Even though I'm not feeling your love, I still hold on, hold on, hold on.... You left me down 'cause I'm an addict. What a surprise, threw out the trash, you called that one right, Oh how it sticks in my mind! I gave you my heart and soul, but all you did is troll. I gave you all my control, all you did is troll. I'm going back to my room, To find me a stronger- lover! Not these bot accounts I'm used to. It will do wonders for my mental health too. Can I hold on, hold on, I don't know I can't hold on.
3.
Far Ride 04:14
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A Deep Pain in my tooth, No longer counting days. I'm face-to-face with the truth. We'll never share our space- and that's fine. Just let me know, let me know what you want. Alright, Take me on a Far Ride. Can have me anytime you want, but I don't think you'll take that chance. I'll let you down, for so long I know, I'm different now. I see you coming around... I see you marching up the pathway to the ground. And I'm not so scared. Call me anytime, Anytime you want! Anytime you want I'll be there for you- ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh! Swing low, Kick high, I can figure it out. I'm trying to breathe, but you're stuck in my teeth. When are we gunna go and fill this cavity? I want so much to run from anything uncomfortable that can fill this hole- This cavity! Yeah! Let's kick it off- A little bit soft. You're not what I wanted but you're all that I've got. We know, we'll give in, if we're left alone in a room again. Moonrise falls on my head, my head, my head and all. We could resolve this- Try and make the world a place for both of us. And you could be my Dentist. Oh it takes some patience, but we could work it through. I'll try to respect the right choice to be separate if we're never better together! I'm trying to breathe, but you're stuck in my teeth. We should prob'ly go ahead and fill this cavity. I'm doing the best I ever have, I stopped dragging my weight from the Past. I see you coming around. I see you marching up the pathway to the ground, but I'm prepared. Call me anytime, anytime you want, any time you want I'll be there for you- Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh! Ooh! Ooh! Ooh! Ooh! (We) We should prob'ly go ahead and fill this cavity.
4.
Walking at Night 06:10
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This is what happens, when you grow- and you learn to. This is what happens when you realize you're wrong. You leave me underneath the covers when, I don't wanna wake up with the rest of them, so let's catch a cab. Let's get a faster way there. In times I'm looking back upon myself it's when, I'm puzzled that we made the choice to abandon them. Was it youth? I don't know, But I've got faith now. I've tried to reach out to get your gauge on it. Is your conscience clear now that you have your own kid? So I'll sing to you but I don't want your heart back, I just want to remove my doubt. So why did we snuff them out? The bells that ring I can hear them above all else, They resonate inside me like an evil elf, But I champion my ways, I've got to move on. What's left is nothing more than harvesting, the broken dreams of someone never born to sing. I should have seen this coming when I was 23. What happens when we're both influenced by the hate? It feels so easy to let go, yet it's harder to stay. So I'll sing to you, but not to get your heart back, I just wanna remove that doubt. Tell me why, oh why did we snuff them out? I'm done looking for answers. I'm just letting it go as it comes. And anything else is a lie, constructed, by the best vampires walking at night. I just wanna figure it out. Tell me why, oh why, did we snuff them out? They're no longer here to say...anything at all.
5.
Silly Love 04:24
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I wanted you back. Wasn't I silly for that? mhm. And I'm afraid I'll get off track- Get me- out of this prison I've been in. Am I silly for thinking about love, when the best things happen naturally to me? I'm silly stupid thinking about love, well I should just let it be. So whatcha gunna do about that, what you gunna do about that? What you gunna do about that if you find me, find me? Whatcha gunna do about that if you find me? Let's go I'm ready all I can think about is love, And I'm hoping you're in love- it's why I can't ever get enough. Ever get enough- Whatcha gunna do about that? Whatcha watcha gunna do about that? You have me still, amn't I silly for that? Well I guess. I'm embarrassed to let go- and my heart- let it fall- into pieces. Am I silly for thinking about love, when I don't think I deserve it no more? Yeah I'm stupid silly thinking about love, you had seven years and made it in four. I'm still here (Pretty Late). So watcha gunna do about that, watcha gunna do about that? What you gunna do about that if you find me, find me? It's like I've always told myself, it's not that bad. I can't get away from you so I think I'm breaking out of my shell, Breaking out of my shell. What you gunna do about that? Watcha watcha gunna do about that? What you gunna do about that?
6.
Frontlines 03:02
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I think I want you out of my way, Today I'm feeling stressed. If you wanna get punched- good. If you wanna get socked then, we're working on progress. Sometimes it's fun! Oh you think you've got me all figured out, Bet you sit and think to yourself you've got it figured out. Well figure this out! And oh you've got my head run, running around- in a round. And still you're not even close to figuring what I'm all about, What I'm all about. 'Course you know, you know... You're stuck on the Frontlines, I'm caught in the background, And I'm keeping quiet as can be... So I don't end up the same as you- miserable at best. I'm done with these ugly games, Spin you around and put you back in my chest. Well I think I'd relax at home with some wine- if I drank at all. At least I'm doing what I do but I'm doing it too good for you. You're stuck on the Frontlines, I'm caught in the background. I'm keeping quiet, Quiet stuck on the Frontlines, I'm caught in the background, I'm caught in the background.
7.
h34rtspace 03:34
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I rely on you, and you rely on me. You want my heartspace, well, I'll give it to you now. You told me it was full, I had some room to breathe, now I want you closer, how can we make that happen? Only takes one thing to set me off, when I'm desperate, I relent it. And I feel lost, come and shut me off, You're allowed to... Can I feel found, and I'm never down? It's a dream I have, So I'll let you in my heartspace letcha in my heartspace heartspace, heartspace, heartspace, heartspace, Space, space, space, heartspace! I rely on you, and you rely on me. You want my heartspace, well, I'll give it to you now. You told me it was full, I had some room to breathe, now I want you closer, how can we make that happen? You're enough, I can tell. It's been a ride inside of myself. I could hum a thing or two that would make you groove. We could get real, we could get right. I could let you know what's going on inside. If you're lucky, I'ma open my space to you... Then say, you love, our time, we're spent. Alright! We're fine. After awhile we both come back to it and... You told me it was full, we had some room to breathe, now I have you closer, and I have all I wanted.... heartspace, heartspace, heartspace, heartspace, Space, space, space, heartspace!
8.
Go Out Instead 03:26
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These lies take ahold of me when you're not looking and they're- Trying their very best at playing games in my head. Playing games in my head. If there was ever a time for a bittersweet moment to reflect- I think it's this one. Oh you build me up, with some bullship, Then bring me back down with truth later like it never happened. (at all) I can't have you in this house with me.... Get out Get out! Get out, Get OUT! I'm not kidding around and it's sad. That the only true thing I've learned from you was that, Around you pills are so easy to lose. This voice in my mind, it screams away the pain and it tells- Me that I'm better off alone but it's just games in my head. So I'll Go Out Instead! I wanna see what the trees are like finally, I've been stuck in the forest for so long. Well at least I stood up for myself, This time I'm giving back to my health. Spent 3 years now growing back (It's been too long, I'll get back), Watch me move- You wish you could pull off these cool ass moves! (Don't ya?) Get out Get out - Get out, Get OUT! I'm not kidding around and it's sad. That the only true thing I've learned from you was that, Around you pills are so easy to lose. (ooh-ooh-ooh) These lies get ahold of me when you're not looking and they're- Trying their very best they're winning games in my head. credits
9.
180s 05:04
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saw the leaves turn brown, I saw the clouds come down. I saw you around the house, walking to your grave. And I find that you're more, more important than you could ever see yourself now. So I choose to be free. I heard you're telling lies, anyone can tell. And the last time I saw you, I thought you looked like hell- but it feels nice and I- Can't blame you for being down, one-eighties take a lot of work. There's not a picture that can bring me down, when I see your face it hurts. But I'll come back from this too. You're not the end all, I'm not the perfect person I thought that I could be (and I'll never be!) So I choose to be free! Choose to be free. I'm fine where I am, (in this house), in this house. I'm fine where I am, in this house, in this house, in this house. (You're always welcome, you're always welcome) I'm fine where I am, in this house, in this house you're always welcome, you're always welcome. In this house you're always welcome, always welcome. In this house, you're always welcome, you're always welcome. One-eighties take a lot of work!
10.
Be with You 04:48
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If we want the world, then we've gotta fight. It's easy as that, or is it a big lie? 'Cause I want the world to be by my side. It seems like a weapon I could use for leverage almost anytime. I've been shaking it off, in this life nothing matters. Whether I have the upper-hand I just want you to be happy. Can my needs take a back seat, while I go and make a plan B? I wanna be with you, can I be with you? I don't wanna grow, I don't wanna know what's up, I wanna be with you, can't be with you. It's too late, it's too late, it's too late I missed my shot again. I figured my fights were in the wrong place. and I was right-on I figured out more effective ways to handle that rage, That we all can feel when we're dejected. It's like home, when we fall but not alone. You underestimate me, one regret nested deeply inside of my soul. I'm not the only one, and that's for sure, I still gotta feel.... That I wanna be with you, can I be with you? I don't wanna grow, I don't wanna know what's up, I wanna be with you, can't be with you. It's too late, it's too late, it's too late I missed my shot again. I stalled and end it all, just for the fun of it. You went and brushed it off, 'cause you truly loved me well I... Never embraced your love, now I don't the chance, less it's with someone else, That's my due punishment. Never embraced your love, Wished I'd done that years ago, now you're too far gone. My one regret, it's living in my past, and I don't have a feeling. I've made my amends for all else, but this one thing lives in my mind. I wanna be with you, can I be with you? I don't wanna grow, I don't wanna know what's up, I wanna be with you, can't be with you. It's too late, it's too late, it's too late I missed my shot again. It's too late, it's too late, it's too late but I feel myself again. It's too late, it's too late, it's too late I missed my shot- again.
11.
Pull the Cords 04:22
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Hold my Coffee- While I break free from this narcissistic trap! Here I am! I let me out. I have to decide- Choose to be free, but I'd rather Die. All of the Musicians that I looked up to before, They're now afraid, afraid to speak their minds. So I'll do this, and you do you. I guess we're not the same, but it's only the truth. You're in a digital trap, we're in a digital trap. I'm in a digital trap, You can't tell me how to act. We're in a digital trap, you're in a digital trap. I'm in a digital trap, you can't tell us how to act! Woah-oh-oh, Woah-oh-oh. Stop your Talking- 'cause when I leave I never ever come back. Yeah, you oughta know, I've given up on pretty much everything by now! I'm just about to pull the cords...so I find my strength and energy, All from my dog because he's the only one that loves me! (I'm not digital, that's whack) (Are you digital man?) Watch me break free from this narcissistic trap. Watch me break free from your complete control. Oh, I won't wait up. Gave you everything I never had. I'm figuring out now that maybe, everyone's got a fight. I'm never better than that. I have the sense to forgive you now and, I won't regret it all. I remember the way things really were, and I'll never be lost again. (So I'm dealing with that right now) If I exist, and you do too? Well we're not the same! So what do we do? You're in a digital trap, I'm in a digital trap, We're in a digital trap, you can't tell me how to act. I'm in a digital trap, You're in a digital trap, We're in a digital trap, and you can't tell me how to ACT! (Woah-oh-oh) I'm crying for no one- I cry for no one. I cry for no one....no one.

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An 11-Song powerhouse of exploration. A personal exorcism of the soul, "Begin to Feel," ranges in sound from Acoustic-driven alternative rock, to Pop Punk, Electronic, then back again to stillness.

This album shows off my range as a musician, producer, and singer without taking from anything else. All of the songs on "Begin to Feel" were messages gifted to me, and I have tried my hardest to interpret those messages into music. This music is much bigger than just my self. I hope you enjoy listening and creating your own interpretation :).

Over time, I will be sharing some B-Side tracks and more artwork that was created for this record. B-sides are coming 12/17/22, and I'll keep you updated on the artwork package, as this will ultimately create "Begin to Feel" DELUXE! ONLY on Bandcamp, and it's just $4 (half of which goes to MusiCares (assisting musicians with substance use disorders).

Don't hesitate to support though until I figure out the artwork drop! Anyone who purchases this album through Bandcamp will receive a Link within 72hrs which provides the missing extra content :)

With Love,
Colin

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released December 13, 2022

Colin Burke: All Instrumentation Performances, Singing (All Vocal Performances), Songwriting, Mixing, Production, Mastering.
Tom O'Brien: Sanity Checks

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12/13/22 my new 11-song LP "Begin to Feel" Arrives to all platforms! Bandcamp has a special deluxe release with artwork and B-Sides, coming 12/15/22 @ 8pm CST

By the way, I'm Colin and I'm a Music Maker/Songwriter using Instruments + Sounds from This and Other Universes!

I'm currently looking for a MANAGER or representation for help. I am also looking to form a live band! Contact Me via email! ... more

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